I've returned

[Wish Fulfillment]

I haven't posted here in a while because I was seriously wondering if gaining was what I wanted to do. I've actually lost 10 pounds. But then I realised that I'll never be truly happy with my body until I'm fat. I tried to ignoe the impulses, but after a few weeks, I just had to read a story or see some pictures. Anyone else feel this way?

[pavili255]

Yeah, I've done that before. I actually had a different account at one point, then asked for it to be closed, then decided to come back. And I've had times where I've gone for almost a month without posting.

Anyways, glad you're back!

P.S., my inactivity this week has been due to the fact that I've been really freakin' exhausted by the time I got home from whatever I happened to be doing. But now I'm on Christmas break! YAY!!

[blargh127]

Yeah.. I know exactly what you mean. I took off for that time like.. a month or at least almost a month.. and then one night it's like.. I almost flipped out and I needed a video or something.. the realisation though that I wouldn't be happy though unless I gained a few (increments of ten) pounds.. that hasn't happened yet.. there's a part of me fighting against that so it makes me feel torn up with this.. pleh..

But I know what you're coming from.. it's tough..