What Pisses Me Off..

[blargh127]

Alright.. just.. read through this and then you might understand my meaning.. but..

Last week, a few of my friends were in a car accident and two were DOA and two others were in critical condition.. just yesterday morning.. one of them passed away. With all of this.. I've like.. let myself go: I haven't shaved at all this past week so I have a beard, almost.. my face has gone to hell in terms of acne.. my self-esteem took a shit.. and.. I've gained weight..

Now.. I know a lot of you could be thinking "How can the last part be bad?" Well.. it's like.. how can I enjoy it, ya know? So I guess that's my question..

How can I enjoy this.. newly acquired fat despite the circumstances? I might get pics up, if those are allowed since I'm an intentional gainer.. it's just.. this weight gain wasn't really.. all that intentional.. I just eat for comfort.. >_<

I'll stop now before I upset anyone.

[somethingsmells]

The only thing you can do, really, is try to distance the two things. See them as separate events, rather than coincidental.

I'm really sorry for your loss.

*returns to lurking*

[bigsb]

Yeah, I agree with him ^^. Probably not conincidence, but you can't entirely rule it out, so go with it and take solace in something happening to you that you've wanted to.

Hang in there Tony, gotta be one of those ups due soon.

Do or don't do whatever you need to get yourself through this time. My thoughts are with you.

[jackjackjack]

Maybe this is an excuse to quit track, try enjoying the fat even if it doesn't have a great source, try to enjoy every meal you have.
I really hope things start getting better for you :(

[gooseface]

Sorry to hear about that Tony :\. I've gone through a similar experience in the past (with friends being in a car accident that is).
It's always going to suck but it'll get easier with time.

As for the gain, just remember that you were pretty set on beating that track record, and losing yourself now isn't going to make that any easier. haha

[pavili255]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I've never (thankfully) lost anyone really close to me, but I've seen the pain it causes. You can get through it though.

It's really hard to think of weight at a time like this, I'm sure. Try not to think about it until you're ready to move on. Don't try to gain, or lose. Just let what happens happen until it's the right time for you.

[Big_fat_kiddo]

I'm sorry for your loss. I've lost my closest friend a few years ago (cancer).

I agree with with most people on this, try to enjoy what you can enjoy at the moment, and eventually it will all get better.

Hang on there;) and don't loose yourself!

[iwannabereallyfat]

Im very sorry. :(

[packingonpounds]

Your individual grieving process is fine. Do whatever helps you sort the events out. Your weight should not probably be a priority. Eventually, you will have to attend services and you will have community grieving. Fortunately time helps heal. I am sorry for your friends and you...

[blargh127]

Thanks everyone for the support.. it means a lot to me.. >_< My family is.. less than supportive.. so.. I sincerely mean it.. >_<

[Pwim]

I'm really sorry to hear about this.

I think you should probably just not think about the fat too much for now.

Also, if you were not gaining weight beforehand, then you will probably lose it again (sorry!), so any gains you make in future won't be down to this event. If you were already gaining weight, then clearly this isn't the thing that started it all off, and it probably won't make up a big part of a long-running gain.